Wednesday, January 3, 2007

It's official

The beta was negative.

I'm actually feeling surprisingly OK about it. I think I pretty much processed my initial (admittedly crushing) grief over the weekend, so the news was not so much an additional blow, as a welcome bit of closure. This cycle is now officially over. Now I can move on and think about the future.

In the future, there will be another cycle. My doctor suggested March, I suggested February, and she said OK. So, there we are. I have one month to collect my thoughts, live a little, and have many nice glasses of wine. I'm planning to start today.

The other bad news is that nothing made it to freeze.

The silver lining is that my doctor emphasized that my response to stims was "great, considering...", and I interjected "my age?". She laughed and said, "yes". She also said that our embryo quality was "excellent". She says that sometimes she discourages couples from trying again, but that in our case, she really thinks we have a good chance of success if we are persistent.

Given that stubbornness is my most basic personality trait, I don't think that persistence is going to be a problem.


Anonymous said...

Good for you Sara! Way to pick yourself up and dust yourself off!

I'm sorry that you haven't got any frozen embryos for a FET, but it is encouraging that your doc was so optimistic.

Manuela said...

Damn. I'm so sorry to hear this news, Sara. Truly.

Let 2007 be the year of the persistent!

Stephanie said...

Sorry to hear the news! But I am glad you are trying again and soon.

Carey said...

So sorry to hear this didn't work.

My first IVF ended in a BFN with nothing to freeze - we asked to be a little more aggressive on our second IVF - changed my drug protocol and ended up with a much better outcome with blasts to freeze. Each cycle is different, that's for sure. I'm glad you will be trying again!!!

Marie-Baguette said...

Sara, I am very sorry, but it is great the doctor is optimistic. Since your next cycle is going to be a fresh one, please, please take a good break, even if you feel like you do not need one. Rushing everything is not going to help. Your body (and you) need to recharge. A 2-month break between cycles should be the norm. You went through a lot, get a chance to enjoy "normal" life for a while. I feel I should also recommend acupuncture. Yeah, I sort of cringe writting this, but I am now officially a believer... Not that I want to force everyone to try it out. All I am saying is that it might help. Good luck Sara!

Carol said...

Sorry about your negative news. but good for you for picking up the pieces and moving on so quickly.

Hopeful Mother said...

I'm sorry about the BFN. I know how much they hurt.

Your persistence is a great trait - I hope it can pay off sooner rather than later.

Take care of yourself.

Inglewood said...

Those BFN are awful, so sorry. Here's to your next cycle! clink